Episode 68






The mountain explodes behind us and a hundred thousand Ahram go down like grass flattened in the wind. Whoosh. Then comes a brain numbing sucking silence that makes our ears pop and squeak and all sound disappears from the world as if it’s been switched off. I feel as if I am floating in some thick substance, like swimming around in a goldfish bowl full of treacle. I reach out for help but my hands won’t move. Colours come and go, shapes that mean nothing to me move across my field of vision. Nothing has any depth or perspective. It’s all two dimensional right up in front of my face. I feel myself floating gently above the ground and wonder where I’m being taken.
Then comes a backwash of wind, and a screaming, howling pressure inside my head that pierces to the centre of my brain like a dirty nail and my eyes begin to bulge. The world jumps back into a crazy focus of misty landscapes and crouching figures. My nose is running so I wipe it on the back of my hand and am surprised to see blood. I turn and see another Ahram nearby and he is also bleeding from his snoot - dazed.  All the Ahram, like me, are unable to stand, driven to their knees by the screaming sound. But it’s not over yet. Then comes Jove’s thunder and all hell enters my head. The ground judders and shakes and cracks and everyone is suddenly running and falling and trying to escape a foe that is all around us….above and underneath, ripping the universe apart and tearing it from under our feet.
The mountain that exploded is all of thirty miles away, which is probably why we are still alive. I turn and watch a massive chunk of it separate from the main range, teeter, topple, and fall over in a cloud of dust that races towards us like a massive wall of boiling brown soup. The ground jumps up to meet me and my hands grasp for something to cling to. I close my eyes and tuck my head in as the wave of sand and debris hits us. Gasping and choking, I wonder if we’ll ever see open air again.

The rain of sand and dust finally settles and a beautiful silence returns, full of normal nothingness. I listen to my breathing. I am here. I am alive. I do not move. I do not ever wish to move again. Life has suddenly become very precarious and I feel sure any untoward movement of mine will set off another catastrophic explosion. The Ahram also think so, for we all wait…very quietly, and very still.
Then I hear it. Like the buzzing of an angry bee, getting closer and closer and I look around to try and identify the insect responsible. But the sound gets louder and louder…impossibly loud for an insect or animal. I can feel its vibration in the air and when I look up I see the Tartarus a few thousand feet above us, engines screaming to keep the ship aloft and once again my world is whipped out from underneath me.
How the hell did he find me? How the hell did he find me amongst all these Ahram? Well I suppose he didn’t find me yet or else I’d be dead. He was probably just taking a few practice shots.
Shim is talking to me but her words make no sense - like Donald Duck-speak. And she’s making gestures with her hands but I just stare at her like an idiot. Then the other two girls are at my side, lifting me up and carrying me along. I look down and watch my feet dragging in the dust and give them a good talking to for being so lazy. But still they refuse to work. Life is funny now. Now that it’s nearly over. I feel a lightness in my soul, as if all my cares have been taken from my shoulders. I look at the Ahram girl next to me and smile at her. I am just full of good will. Spreading the love. She turns her head away.
There’s dust in my eyes and in my mouth. I can also feel the caked blood on my chin and cheeks. What a sight I must be. The Ahram look no better though. Slowly the feeling begins to return to my body and my legs start to function again. Within minutes I am running without much help. I look around for Garm. I can’t see him anywhere in the crowd but the press is so great I can hardly keep track of everyone. We are all being dragged along by an ocean of Ahram sweeping away from the explosion towards the citadel, a mindless mass, shocked senseless, heading pell-mell towards the Seesh’s lair.